Miranda’s Daily Blog: Day 87
“I hope you see you a beautiful bird soon and it makes your day!” That was the text message my friend wrote to me last night, when I was feeling a bit down. It’s true last time I was getting a bit frustrated about being up here, an owl came to visit and it made everything seem ok. Well, I guess I have to be honest with you and tell you that it can be a bit hard up here sometimes. For all the amazing beauty of the forest and the inspiration of fighting to the good fight and so on and so on… it’s still hard to keep my spirits up everyday. Yes, some days the isolation gets to me and the loneliness sets in. I didn’t think I’d get too lonely. Generally I’m quiet content to be on my own. My mum tells me that when I was little I often used to be quiet happy to go off and play on my own despite having lots of friends to play with. So, I guess this project suits my personality a bit, right? Plus who can get lonely these days with so much technology at my fingertips… phone calls, sms, facebook, email…. you’re never really alone anymore! So I thought I’d be fine with the isolation up here. But somehow it just gets to you, day in and day out hanging out alone. The odd phone call or email just doesn’t really make up for the face to face interaction with people that I’m used to. It doesn’t make up for coming home everyday to my house mate and best friend to tell her any and all of my day’s exciting or not-so-exciting news. It doesn’t make up for getting a hug from a friend when I really need it. Or being able to hug someone I love when they’re going through a sad time. Or the comfort of curling up in my lovers arms. Or having a stranger smile at me and smiling back. Or laughing with friends. Or even patting a cat! The days can be long up here, no interludes of idle chit chat with people over cups of tea or lunch. Only my own company day in day out. Now, I don’t mean to complain, because I know I have it pretty easy. And I think of Ali locked in a prison cell, separated from friends and family. I can’t imagine what a lonely place prison must be.
None-the-less, yesterday was one of those days when I struggled to keep my chin up, so to speak. There are people who I really miss. And sometimes talking on the phone only serves to make that gap feel even bigger! So, I was moping about feeling a little sorry for myself when I got that text message about seeing a beautiful bird. Yep, I thought, that is what I need. I hope the forest gives me a little gift to cheer me up!
I woke up this morning to a loud sound. Ark-Ark-Arrh, Ark-Ark-Arrh. Not quiet the beautiful bird I had been hoping for. A regular old crow! There it was hanging out on my tree’s branches calling out as loud as it possibly could, making a real ruckus for 6am, I can tell you. An hour later, yep, it’s still in my tree. I feel like it’s desperately trying to tell me something and just not ready to give up. He’s getting louder and more obnoxious… Ark-Arh-ARRHH! It makes me smile. Yep, it might not be an exotic, rare rainforest bird with a beautiful harmonic song, but this old crow managed to cheer me up just the same! “Good morning Crow” I say. “Arggh” he says. “Do you have something to tell me?” “Arrr-Ark” Hmm… it’s hard to decipher the message. But I’m sure it must be one about staying positive, I’m doing good work, hang in there… something along those lines, what do you think?